Yesterday, I interviewed for a job in Saratoga. It was fun driving in 'toga now that the flat track is up and running. Thankfully I was at the interview after Post time. WOOHOO. I think I did really well with this Job interview. I am hoping I get this position. I followed up with a Thank you note. I have done everything right. Or at least I think I have. It seemed that I hit it off with the HR Director and the program Director. Truly wasn't much to the interview. Didn't get the strength or weakness test. I was waiting for that. I have the qualifications, and I have the experience doing intake. I should get this position. I hope I do. I just hate the wait. I don't want to seem like a pain in the ass so I will not bother this person until Monday. I was hoping to be working by Monday, but ahh well not much I can do about it. Keeping my fingers crossed. I really like the non-profits. Well I am trying to vent. But it is just making me more self conscious about what I may or may not have done right. So Off to read a book.
More soon....
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Looking for a Job again....
Well I am looking for a job again. OF course I am applying to everything that I am suited for in a 25 mile radius. Hopefully something will happen. I am tired of this routine. I think I really need to change something. Perhaps its time to go back to college. I am not sure that I can handle it though. We will see. I am trying to get a job with the school district as an Special Education Aide. I think it might be a good thing for me. Perhaps I will get the job and go to college part time. I must think positive. I just need a break, I need to find something.
Having major problems with Hunter. I do not understand anymore. We have tried everything and nothing is working. Last week I got into a major fight with her paternal grandmother and father, who isn't involved like I thought he would be. I feel he is the part of my problem. Hunter called them and asked if she could live with them for the rest of the summer. They called me and told me they wanted me to sign over full custody. I said no way. It wasn't happening. Hunter called them because she is angry that she has rules and consequences that need to be followed. Hunter has a lot of mental health issues and requires medication. Personally at this point I am not sure the medication is working the way it should. And her paternal grandmother has shown that she doesn't listen when I tell her things. I have dealt with her because her father refuses to deal with me. I think it has been for nothing, all these years of trying to get him to participate in her life. It really made me angry when after not being in contact with Hunter for three years, her father didn't make the trip to see Hunter, he claimed he needed to stay with the dog. Ummm, HELLO? Is the dog more important then your daughter? Then at her 8Th grade graduation, he didn't show up either, the dog again. At least he is consistent. I am tired of my daughter being angry at me, for his shortcomings as a father. Three long years they had no contact, I was told it was because his mother was sick. So you couldn't drop a note, pick up a phone, send a birthday card. Hunter has done some scary things in the past, including telling mandated reporters about sexual abuse, that may or may not have happened (the jury, me, is still out on that one) As a parent you don't run away because you are being investigated again, you deal with it and move on. You don't disappear from a child's life. When given the chance to be part of that life again, you don't say that a dog needs your attention. Three years is a long time for a child to wait. Now, because this child wants her father, as she has all along, they make me out to be the bad guy. Hunter has some very big decisions to make in the next few weeks. As I was writing this Hunter called her Paternal grandmother, and she is now very angry with them. I am not sure if this is a positive feeling or not. I am concerned that Hunter will not be able to deal with this in a constructive way. She needs to deal with it in therapy. I guess we will see.
I love both my children dearly and have made some mistakes, but I guess that is what parenting is about. Maybe one day I will look back on this hellish time and laugh.
Well I am off, I have to get ready to take a child to the doctors for her monthly appointment.
Having major problems with Hunter. I do not understand anymore. We have tried everything and nothing is working. Last week I got into a major fight with her paternal grandmother and father, who isn't involved like I thought he would be. I feel he is the part of my problem. Hunter called them and asked if she could live with them for the rest of the summer. They called me and told me they wanted me to sign over full custody. I said no way. It wasn't happening. Hunter called them because she is angry that she has rules and consequences that need to be followed. Hunter has a lot of mental health issues and requires medication. Personally at this point I am not sure the medication is working the way it should. And her paternal grandmother has shown that she doesn't listen when I tell her things. I have dealt with her because her father refuses to deal with me. I think it has been for nothing, all these years of trying to get him to participate in her life. It really made me angry when after not being in contact with Hunter for three years, her father didn't make the trip to see Hunter, he claimed he needed to stay with the dog. Ummm, HELLO? Is the dog more important then your daughter? Then at her 8Th grade graduation, he didn't show up either, the dog again. At least he is consistent. I am tired of my daughter being angry at me, for his shortcomings as a father. Three long years they had no contact, I was told it was because his mother was sick. So you couldn't drop a note, pick up a phone, send a birthday card. Hunter has done some scary things in the past, including telling mandated reporters about sexual abuse, that may or may not have happened (the jury, me, is still out on that one) As a parent you don't run away because you are being investigated again, you deal with it and move on. You don't disappear from a child's life. When given the chance to be part of that life again, you don't say that a dog needs your attention. Three years is a long time for a child to wait. Now, because this child wants her father, as she has all along, they make me out to be the bad guy. Hunter has some very big decisions to make in the next few weeks. As I was writing this Hunter called her Paternal grandmother, and she is now very angry with them. I am not sure if this is a positive feeling or not. I am concerned that Hunter will not be able to deal with this in a constructive way. She needs to deal with it in therapy. I guess we will see.
I love both my children dearly and have made some mistakes, but I guess that is what parenting is about. Maybe one day I will look back on this hellish time and laugh.
Well I am off, I have to get ready to take a child to the doctors for her monthly appointment.
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